i jus saw one of my high school friends' nick for msn. it wasnt a good news and so worried i had to search through her xanga cite. fortunately or unfortunately,,, i found it.
it was really hard for me to read through her diary. i really understand what she is going through and definitely know her feeling.
life is fun if you enjoy, but life sucks if you face this huge ironic disaster. dont you think?
everyone atleast once lose their way to follow, rite? ur not the only one whose lost, rite? yet indeed, thatz ppl.
nway, i feel so.. i dont know, i cant come up w/ the rite word. but whenever i look at my high school friends' diary, i feel dis way. i do miss where i lived. i do miss some of my friends. but i never miss high school itself. yet ends up having no reunion. never, i bet. who would organize. it sometimes irritates me or makes me feel ashame to remember. the nice sweet days i had in 2anda half years. the hell i never ever would have again from 2anda half years. so confused cuz itz tottaly mixed.
if i could, i know itz impossible. but if i could, i would re-do my high school years. i have so many things i should have done differently. i have too much things i couldnt do although i really wanted to. how rediculous i wasted this time with almost no fun.
and i think i tend to repeat. thatz the reason for this tears. and maybe for my friend's tears. i just wanted to say im sorry.